Thanks to holiday because it'll give me a lot of happiness.
10th of June till 13th of June will be my awesome four days.
Carries luggage and bags , board the bus with joy and make some laughters with others.
Without parents and annoying sister, i'll boarded a plane to Kota Kinabalu with my chingu and seonsaeng.
*lets make a YEAY sounds*
*that's yehet sounds*
I'm seriously excited now. I really can't wait to pick up my luggage and set up my way with hundreds of money in my hand. xD
Just wait me till i got home, i'll send my pictures on the next posts.
Why am i so excited rite now !?
Hai peeps. Thank you guys for peeping my blog.
I've changed my blogskin into an exo atmosphere around my blogger.
Cute right ? well. today , me , mrs. nebula gonna tell why i suddenly fall in love into EXO.
I'm extremely hate Exo at the past. But now, i'm so like them.
Well i've misunderstood about them. they seriously cute and cool.
their mischievous make me insane and happy.
I fall in love with them after Ain told me that exo had release a new album called OVERDOSE.
At first i refuse it, but Ain forced me.
Slowly i opened my youtube and listen to that music.
Listen and listen.
I'm slowly like them.
Their songs are great. I like those kind of songs.
I like the most is D.O.
So did his voice.
Now, after i knowing them.
I've forget slowly about my crushes. lol
I feel like a thousand and a million stabbing my heart.
Tears flow down my cheeks. No one cares about me.
Yes no one.
Or maybe im not realise ?
The presence of their concerns ?
I think not.
I walked out from my class. There a bitch outside the door. Waiting for him.
Opss. not bitch. a girl. sorry for the impolite word. ahahahaha -_-
I said loudly : " Rachel laa! Dia tunggu coffee !"
Tira is calming me. I yelled again : " Aku benci Rachel !"
Tira worried about me.
I know it was wrong. Who cares ?
I just want to let my anger go !
Louder and louder !
Or maybe that girl look at me unsatisfied. maybe ?
I don't care ! You wanna say i don't have boyfriend?
OK! I'll find better than yours !
Not just the girl i Hate !
And the boy too !
Maybe today i say i love him. i 'll change myself soon.
Wait and see.
I'll let both of you go.
And let me be and free.
I miss the moments when i was young.
Playing sands, climbing hills.
But they just a memories that i could keep in mind.
Whatever i do when im young,
is a greatest memories i never had.
But now im 15.
Im grown up. Im not a little princess.
I can find my own life. My another half in my heart.
I know. I've done a lot of unforgivable mistakes.
Again and again and again.
Im stubborn much.
I think im ego.
I do everything i want.
I do everything that you guys hate.
I cant do that. Let me go.
I cant do that. Let me go.
Im not a good friend. at all.
Special one. I mean ex-special one.
During our relationship,
i think i'd break your hearts.
i cant protect your heart. i cant make you smiles.
You let me go.
But till now, 99% from my hearts,
still for you. yes you.
Please take good care of it. and also the girl that you love. now. :')
Kisah silam aku penuh dgn memori yg cukup indah untuk dikenang. Wlaupun kadang2 ade rse kecewa, sakit hati, perit, cemburu and whatever . But ianya tetap indah dan byk knowledge yg aku dpt setelah itu.
Aku let everything go and i hope it'll never come back again.
well, salah aku jugak dlm part ni. Aku EGO sgt.
Jadi org yg terlalu ego ni susah sikit, nak handle emotion sendiri mmg susah.
Bila kemarahan datang, aku buat semua org yg ade sekiling aku sakit mental. haih im really insane !!
Well, hidup aku mcm Princess Anna dlm Frozen.
Anggap org tuu true love sendiri, padahal bukan.
Aku tak blame org tuu, but i blame myself.
Ego sgt , so he left me with a reason..
Im ego. maybe.
well, my Hans had gone.
Aku tgh tunggu Kristoff untuk mewarnai hidup aku balik.
The snow glows white on the mountain tonight,not a footprint to be seen.A kingdom of isolation and it looks like I'm the queen.The wind is howling like this swirling storm inside.Couldn't keep it in, Heaven knows I tried.Don't let them in, don't let them see.Be the good girl you always have to be.Conceal, don't feel, don't let them know.Well, now they know!Let it go, let it go!Can't hold it back any more.Let it go, let it go!Turn away and slam the door.I don't care what they're going to say.Let the storm rage on.The cold never bothered me anyway.
yes. sekian lama aku pendam. sakit hati.
bukan kat dia. kat makhluk sedarah dan sedaging aku.
aku tk bermaksud nak membuka aib keluarga. tapi kat siapa aku nak luah kecuali Allah ?
Aku cuma seorang gadis yg terlalu lemah.
cuba untuk tidak menangis, tapi masih tetap menangis.
aku cakap sepatah. balas makian yg berpatah patah.
hati yg dah patah, dia tahu tidak.
aku tk marah dia, malah sebaliknya.
" sampah tu jangan buang merata" , kata aku lembut.
dia buat tak endah, sambung main phone dia.
"kutip sampah tu, kau tau buat, tau buang lee." , kini nada yang lebih tinggi.
kesabaran aku tercabar kerana dia hanya pandang smpah tersebut tapi tak buang.
ya, mmg nmpak kecil perkara tuu, tapi kemalasan dan perubahan dia ketara bila mula masuk sekolah rendah kerubong.
dengar kata, sekolah tuu murid semua suku berbudi bahsa, yg lain lagi , uhh ya ampun !
ye aku sabar, aku kutip sampah tu, aku buang.
adik aku semakin pandai menyumpah org. pandai memaki org, pandai mencarut.
aku cuba tegur dia, sbg kakak, aku harus.
mama papa pon tk boleh buat apapa. beliau akur apa perintah dia. tetapi kadang kala tidak.
yang tidak tulee buat dia melenting atau buat muka.
aku benci kelakuan dia yg sekarang.
kadang-kadang, aku cuba sabarkan hati ni.
tapi tanpa kawal, tangan aku menampar pipi dia dgn kasar.
aku tak tahan dgn kekasaran dia. dia perempuan.
Ya Allah, dia masih kecil. aku takut bila besar nanti, kekasaran dan sikap dia memburuk.
Ap yg aku harus buat ? Mana dia yg dulu ?
Aku suka dia yg dulu.
Sabar, baik, mendengar kata, dan juga anak harapan mama papa.
aku pon cemburu.
tapi kini ?
Munkin dia tertekan dgn sikap aku yg kuat marah ?
sikap aku yg cepat merajuk ?
dia ikut jejak aku ?
aku dah berubah sedikit demi sedikit. aku cuba jadi contoh baik dia yg satusatunya rakan hidup mati aku.
aku nak dia yg dulu.
comel je dia tak mencarut.
Harap dia dapat terbuka hatinya untuk berubah.
A very good awesome night today.
Everyone happy, so did i. For me, the most happiest thing that i do is make everyone happy.
i just want to make them happy, i love them. i hope they too.
i just want them to know how awesome when we fall in love. Maybe that's last time i seen, or maybe not.
A person who love each other , is a good sign and a happiest thing that everyone can have.
but sometimes, it may hurt and make something worst.
I try to make it not too worst.
just pretending dont know.
I believe that me still inside.
even i dont know, i just pray to make miracles came back.
Im not blaming my past, but i appreciate it.
He taught me everything.
I know you will look at this article.
I love you most everyday.
I hope you do.
Forgive my mistakes.
I promise i could be your best friend.